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May 9th, 2010
May 7th, 2009
I can't believe I got hooked on restaurant city it is actually entertaining.. it's 5am and I am going to bed now *slaps forehead
May 6th, 2009
May 5th, 2009
Tried to work something out with my time. Failed. I got bored online and started diy ing the bottom of my shirt so now it's like a fringe I have itchy hands I need to stop laying hands on every single plain shirt. There was nothing else to cut so I started painting moodcards I bought plaincards today and only wanted to use red blue and white. I painted layers, smooth and harsh strokes it turned out wrong, just like what I have been feeling about little details lately. Doesn't seem right.
Phonecalls texts webcam and 11pm. Awkward to complete familiarity. Secrets xchange and special said.
Ring a bell? I miss where we started, before all else.
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Spent monday with sh did random things and had our usual chat I love times like these where simple things make me feel good about holiday. Some gay was being real guailan he stood in front of us and said something about us he said "stare stare stare!" like hell no there was nothing special about them at all nothing worth looking I am not against gays but he had the most annoying gayface he was so egoistic about his coach bag I wanted so bad to smack him I wished we were fast enough I wanted to roll my eyes. Yes bitchy I miss rolling my eyes.
I'm wondering is it fair to lose a close friend for a reason, to not be able to be close like before. To even find it hard sometimes to strike a conversation, having to wait for that person to approach you to know it's right to talk, having to hold back at some point when you don't know if your action your words will cause any unhappiness. To put it simple. I just don't know how to call for you sometimes. At times I miss the friendship I miss knowing we could talk about anything so comfortably and be however close we want to be. As much as I put myself in your shoes, I still felt like I lost something, sometimes, a lil too much I don't know where to start or leave it be.
Need to find blue sky
new light and firefly
rainbows and pink
pretty stars
significant dream
we pretend
we pretend
we have everything
feel nothing
I'm wondering is it fair to lose a close friend for a reason, to not be able to be close like before. To even find it hard sometimes to strike a conversation, having to wait for that person to approach you to know it's right to talk, having to hold back at some point when you don't know if your action your words will cause any unhappiness. To put it simple. I just don't know how to call for you sometimes. At times I miss the friendship I miss knowing we could talk about anything so comfortably and be however close we want to be. As much as I put myself in your shoes, I still felt like I lost something, sometimes, a lil too much I don't know where to start or leave it be.
Need to find blue sky
new light and firefly
rainbows and pink
pretty stars
significant dream
we pretend
we pretend
we have everything
feel nothing